#4 Stone Cold
If I was broken hearted last time, now I'm stone cold...
I am so happy the holidays are over. I felt like a hot mess trying to make the magic happen, especially in the wake of my broken heartedness. I went heavy on birth-of-Jesus vibes and light on the Santa vibes. My kids are old enough and smart enough and present enough to feel the energy shift in our house this year, and there was no pretending it was the same old Holiday happiness.
My pieces were held loosely together with library books and pinot grigio and ~whew~ did that all break apart at Christmas Eve service. I was grateful that my spouse chose to join us for the family service and it really warmed me to have us bookending the kids during worship. I get a little choked up every year when the choir and congregation join voices for ‘Silent Night’ by candlelight; but this year I could literally NOT contain myself. You know in the Bible the verse that reads, “Jesus wept”?1 It’s such a difficult emotion to contemplate. Such overwhelming sadness? Being overcome with so much emotion that you cannot contain it. Weeping??